Things That Go Bump in the Night

Yes, it is 12:35 am I am now suddenly wide awake with this absurd fear.

I live in a very old house(think - 1850's) and well that coupled with my recent obsession with aliens and the supernatural here I am awoken by every noise and having irrational and scary passing thoughts about death. Truth be told death is not something I usually fear, or even ponder but here I am and it's the only thing on my little mind.

It doesn't help at all that it's now a day from Halloween. Not one of my favorite holidays, I don't enjoy crowds or dressing up unless it's in my own imagination I am just not okay with it. That's just me I guess.

Candy on the other hand, that I like. Maybe a bit too much.

Okay back to this sudden fear.

We recently started using the heater again and well like I said this house is very very old, and not much of it is new, certainly not the walls at my best guess so every new vibration can be felt and heard. My little mind likes to play tricks on me as is - add that to this and well I "hear" things that are probably just vibrations or cars outside or any other number of things and my mind goes crazy. And that brings us to this blog entry.

I can't be the only one that this happens to. Right?

Thankfully tomorrow is my official off day. I will be catching up on Mad Men, maybe deep cleaning a few rooms, and finally making my spaghetti squash and fish dinner I have been craving. And hopefully getting a decent nap in, and going to bed at a decent time also...

Morning Thought 10/24

Do we think about the words we use?

I still find myself using things that others may find offensive or are so outdated that they have just become offensive.

I found a particularly interesting article in the Huffington Post this morning about just this.
read it here.

I find that a lot of people throw around many of these words without thinking. I hear and read the term "ghetto" for example a lot. I use it too, I won't lie. I think we use it so easily because it is never pointed out and is accepted. And that's how these words continue to live.

Just my thought for the morning.

Wealth Inequality Distribution in America

eye opening. Take 6 minutest to watch this...

Pumpkin Buyers Remorse - Parenting 101

So buying a pumpkin should be a fun experience, as should be carving/decorating.

Well we bought a pumpkin today, the biggest in the box(yes store bought, I don't pick pumpkins) and well now I'm looking at it and my daughter who's face lit up when we picked it out is set on carving it. How the hell am I going to do this. It's the size of a turkey or a small child.

I feel like this is parenting 101 as I bought this to make her happy - which it has - but now the reality of the situation has hit me.

We'll see how this works out.

I'll make a post about this adventure. I promise...

What Do You Really Know?

What do you really know? What do any of us really know?

Do you know what they told you to know on TV, the newscaster or politician(of which it can be often hard to distinguish)?

Have you checked out all the facts? Do you just re spew the line and rhetoric of that of your friends, colleagues or family?

I guess the real question is - Do you think for yourself? Do you automatically share everything you see on FB or Twitter or Tumblr or whatever form of social media you fancy without looking into it deeper because it fits the agenda you like? Have you thought about the impact of that? Are you just in fact fueling someone else's drive for a few pennies or dollars for every "share" of such, that is ultimately propaganda?

This article -http://articles.chicagotribune.com/2013-08-08/features/ct-tribu-social-media-scam-likefarming-20130808_1_facebook-photos-newsfeed-the-facebook is a good reference and starting point for exploring what you are really doing on social media.

I just find myself bombarded by memes that only give half truths and play on emotions, agendas and are ultimately propaganda and are often just shared by those who feel it is their duty? maybe, or is something else. What makes one so share happy about one subject to the point that they no longer can even fathom another side or several sides exist?

Be critical. Don't preach, and be open.

To preach to others on a scale like Twitter or Facebook leaves at least with me a feeling of "my side is right and yours is wrong" especially when a line just like that is often taunted at those who don't agree or question you. Why are people so judgmental then when the ideas are challenged they become defensive. IF you truly believe and have facts to so harshly judge others lifestyles, and beliefs and behaviors then you should have facts and facts leave no room for defensiveness. They are what they are. IF one chooses to overlook them because they do not fall into one's agenda then that's fine but no reason for the harshness.

I know I recently blogged about this before it's just something I see over and over. And a lot of these issues that many are so passionate about are easy prey for like farming and other scams.

My Thoughts On Why I Watch What I Watch...

I find myself hooked on several TV shows and often because of this lose interest in one or two very fast. As of late the lost interest has befallen on The Walking Dead, I had inhaled it on Netflix when I first got into it a couple seasons late then watched the 3rd Season semi-regularly and now as Season 4 has begun I have DVR'd the first show and yet I find myself watching Mad Men on Netflix instead, which I am several seasons behind.

I can't explain this but maybe I don't have the attention span for so many shows at once. I try to have an action show - I have replaced TWD with Revolution for that and tend to like those characters and the relationships there more, I also need some kind of reality show - which at the moment is Million Dollar Listing - Los Angeles. I guess that leaves drama which Mad Men encompasses, with some very obvious throwbacks to cultural issues of the 1960's which have always intrigued me.

I was never this involved with any TV series until I got Netflix now I feel like I have no excuse to not be up on the latest show that everyone else is talking about. I'm not entirely sure this is a good thing, in fact it probably is not. I have so many other things I need to be doing or could be doing. I have books downloaded onto my Nook that need to be read but for now I focus on TV. Less thought process I guess.

OK TV rant over...

A Few Thoughts for Today...

I find myself reflecting a lot more on morals, and right&wrong more then I ever used to. Maybe it's my age or my insatiable desire for knowledge. There are things in this life and world that I cannot change, people I may never understand, but I can be the best person I can.

I read things and am shaken to the core. I obviously can't do a whole lot to change the world but being aware of the things happening in it and critically thinking about it before I make a judgement one way or the other I try really hard to look at all sides. This applies to less global issues too.

I find myself always feeling pulled towards issues. I don't usually voice my opinions about them to keep the peace but find it hard not to have them. I know my friends and family all have differing political, religious & social views, it's one of the many reasons I choose not to share.

 There are some things however I am vocal about - like Equal Rights for all. There are no qualifiers, no restrictions. I am a big supporter of gay marriage and a woman's right to choose. I also believe in choice in general from food to education and the like but I want to also say that with this choice also comes information and that all people are entitled to accurate and unbiased information on choices that they should be entitled to make. I firmly believe without that choice is pointless.

I should also come out and say that I am an atheist. No, that doesn't mean I worship the Devil, it also doesn't mean I'm Pagan or Wicca either. I don't worship anything. I've tried over the years to find a religion that suits me and I find none do and are all so closely related and similar that I cannot box myself into one. It's just who I am. And to put it out there - I will laugh at you if you say I'm going to Hell because I don't believe in your God. I'm sorry but I don't believe in Hell either. Just saying.

This is just a few of the things on my mind today, The International Day of the Girl & National Coming Out Day.

Happy October 11th...